Maybe I have issues, maybe I am nervous, maybe I am anxious for no reason. I am going to miss a day of work tomorrow to help my son through something. Not a big deal, really isn't, but he needs me and I am going to do this.
I have only taken off one other day in 2.5 years when my entire family was sick. I took another half day when I had to put my dog down about a year ago. Needed to do it while my kids were still at school. Besides that, have not missed a day except for meetings, conferences, symposiums, etc. Which don't get me wrong, is missing work in the building, but is still work related and not personal or sick.
I am blessed to never get sick, and my family is also pretty healthy (I have 3 children, a wife, dog, cat, 2 gerbils, and 2 hamsters). I am also blessed to have a wife that is willing to stay home when those days are needed, this can not be understated in its importance. She allows me to keep a focus on my school, which is pretty selfish at times, I will admit.
But I am still anxious, still have a feeling of guilt, although not warranted nor justified. This is more a feeling of "what will other's think?" if I take a day off? I think I know a lot of educators that also have this stress.
Why is that?
Why is it that educators have this moral obligation to want to show up?
I have shown up at about 50% on a few days over the past years, but I was still there. I know I need to just relax, everything will be fine, but still those worries and questions.
I don't want to come off as if I am complaining or whining... I just know that many out there also have this stress level when taking days off for personal reasons. I feel you, I appreciate the feeling, it is maybe not normal, but I understand it. As educators we need this feeling to push us to be better when we are there.