Wednesday, April 4, 2018

Fork In The Road - Went Both Ways....

There are moments in time when you appear to lose your way
Moments when you can't remember what you're meant to do today

Realizing, the feeling, anxiety creeping, needing reality feeding
Your impending, challenging by your own indecision, nervous twitching

Just breathing, give me meaning, forgiving my own limitations
Sensing the beginning of the ending, leveraging my meandering

Lacking the exciting, the driving, the forcing, the enabling
Wondering how to get it back, the sensing and affirming

Off the bank of cognitivity, off rhyming with ING
Monotony of Monday until the relief of Friday

How do you get back the groove you felt?
How do you get back the sensation of advance?
How do you get back the idea of growth?
How do you get back to what you once wrote?

When have you have fallen off
When you don't know what you lost

I realized more than ever lately that my naivety I can not take lightly
While at the same time realizing my longevity, although lengthy
Ultimately expires with little in terms of my obituary
Which I want to be read this way
"He cared, although joked constantly, he believed in people, kids, and family"

All three are important, especially in my line of work.
I am so sick of reading posts about "You may be the only one in this kids life that cares..."
NO YOU ARE NOT! Why do you say, how do you dare...

Those that make those statements live in a privilege of thinking themselves too much
You may be an important and maybe top candidate for caring
But in the draft of life, child picks family over educator every time
Even in a not so great environment place, recognize your influence
You are a chapter, like my time with Napster, you help them gather
Forever thankful, but not the beginning, middle, end.
I don't state this to hate, but hopefully send a message
Recognize, you need to understandably know your role
Your flow, directly reflects your ability to advocate, negotiate
Mediate, the love to educate needs to be different than that to liberate
Know your influence has importance, a consequence, repercussions, and signifigance

But you are not the only one, there is always someone else.
Just be real, even in the saddest eyes you see, empathy
This is okay, it is the way it should be, you are a cog in the wheel
I hear Maslowe before Bloom's and I do 100% agree
But you can't take on the role of everything, there are too many needs
It would be better to find, guide, and work with what they bring
Reach out to understand and support, help direct them, allow them to sing

All this being said, I love the "best principal" ever card, the posters and pictures that line my walls
I just need to understand in my fork in the road, that I am a believer in kids, not their everything bestowed
I need to understand that I am not going to change the world every day with every kid.
I need to understand a quote or speech from me is a wasted attempt, it depends on what they see.

Hologramz - The whole album esp. "Speeding" - Hex One, 5th Element - AVG 92 BPM




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