Thursday, January 24, 2019

Been listening more lately, less producing
Reflecting and dreaming, regardless
Stressful in the act to listen
Take on others harm
I had to disarm, had to throw away
Throw away the advocate
Relocate, filter applied
Can't believe how long I been lied
Dream, memory, remember me
Figuring action immediately

That is my bar...

Here is my reason. 

I have always had passions.  I have always had dreams, goals, and bucket list items.  I also have begun to realize the power of being where you are.  My dreams, goals, and bucket list are for the future, maybe... I am also a person that has been blessed with being able to have already fulfilled many of the bucket list items of others.  So I speak from a position of privilege, and recognition of what I have been given.  I have earned little, I have been given much. 

I feel I need to put that out there as I am my own best and worst critic.  It is a split relationship I am just beginning to understand. 

All that being said, I feel I know what I need to do.  Sort of what I have always done.  Be an advocate and a line in the sand for the young people that are around me.  Recently that also includes my own children over the past 10 years.  Now that I have been in education for 17 years and 26 working with kids going back to Counselor In Training Days at soccer and day camps.   

Don't know why I feel, a need to put the resume out there
Back to the bars, as I try to explain my tune, justify I dare
It started with a conversation, a tweet, a vox, a list, a blog, a book
Snook... it took me to a place in myself I did not want to see
I had to ask repeat is that me... no not me... yes, me... woweee

Below is a list that allowed me to understand what I was learning from sources that were interacting with me.  It was a Code Switch, which is a great podcast to learn from.  Just search those words.  *** Disclaimer *** The below list is from a 40 year old white guy that has a love affair with Philadelphia. 

J. Cole, Charlamagne. HEZI, Rage, Public Enemy, Meek, Fontaine, Black Thought, Run the Jewels, Jedi Mind Tricks

Thursday, January 17, 2019

Watch you gonna be...

Watch you gonna be
When do you finally see

Clarity comes like  a blaze
Not expecting, not relating

Your brain a maze
Pencil and eraser away

Welcome To "My House" unpacking
You know you want to stay

Where to go from here
Open your ear
Fear is normal
Pull back, no worry
Come back, clap back
Go to your journal

It is okay, what you suppose to do
Find the truth, find the you in you

That is all that is asked
That is all that is mandatory
Come out the mask
Come out the fantasy