Saturday, February 2, 2019

He needs to go...

This is going to be short.

One of my podcasts @brilliantidiots which, by the way, is the greatest name ever....

Marinate on that.  Brilliant Idiots

Charlamange and Andrew teach me every week to keep the "same" energy. 

A Democratic governor of Virginia, A white male... no duh!

Had a picture of a KKK member and a "Black Face" person holding beers with a dumb, but not offensive, narrative. 

OKAY, he got to go.

Never have I ever thought of doing that, posting it, including it in my bio page in a yearbook.  Like neva eva...

He has to go... Keep the same energy Democrats, even though I am not one of you.  I am progressive, I am wanting to be a social justice warrior.  I am striving and practicing to be really anti-rasist.  I am close,  maybe... therefore politics does not matter.

Racism is racism.  There is no politics.  So to all the white people, white males, that want to bring politics into this... Please put your "devil's advocate" and "well.... what if..." theories away. 

They don't work.  He needs to go, we need to make sure of it.  Get on board or shove your racism away again, like you did last year and lived with it. 


Thursday, January 24, 2019

Been listening more lately, less producing
Reflecting and dreaming, regardless
Stressful in the act to listen
Take on others harm
I had to disarm, had to throw away
Throw away the advocate
Relocate, filter applied
Can't believe how long I been lied
Dream, memory, remember me
Figuring action immediately

That is my bar...

Here is my reason. 

I have always had passions.  I have always had dreams, goals, and bucket list items.  I also have begun to realize the power of being where you are.  My dreams, goals, and bucket list are for the future, maybe... I am also a person that has been blessed with being able to have already fulfilled many of the bucket list items of others.  So I speak from a position of privilege, and recognition of what I have been given.  I have earned little, I have been given much. 

I feel I need to put that out there as I am my own best and worst critic.  It is a split relationship I am just beginning to understand. 

All that being said, I feel I know what I need to do.  Sort of what I have always done.  Be an advocate and a line in the sand for the young people that are around me.  Recently that also includes my own children over the past 10 years.  Now that I have been in education for 17 years and 26 working with kids going back to Counselor In Training Days at soccer and day camps.   

Don't know why I feel, a need to put the resume out there
Back to the bars, as I try to explain my tune, justify I dare
It started with a conversation, a tweet, a vox, a list, a blog, a book
Snook... it took me to a place in myself I did not want to see
I had to ask repeat is that me... no not me... yes, me... woweee

Below is a list that allowed me to understand what I was learning from sources that were interacting with me.  It was a Code Switch, which is a great podcast to learn from.  Just search those words.  *** Disclaimer *** The below list is from a 40 year old white guy that has a love affair with Philadelphia. 

J. Cole, Charlamagne. HEZI, Rage, Public Enemy, Meek, Fontaine, Black Thought, Run the Jewels, Jedi Mind Tricks

Thursday, January 17, 2019

Watch you gonna be...

Watch you gonna be
When do you finally see

Clarity comes like  a blaze
Not expecting, not relating

Your brain a maze
Pencil and eraser away

Welcome To "My House" unpacking
You know you want to stay

Where to go from here
Open your ear
Fear is normal
Pull back, no worry
Come back, clap back
Go to your journal

It is okay, what you suppose to do
Find the truth, find the you in you

That is all that is asked
That is all that is mandatory
Come out the mask
Come out the fantasy

Friday, November 16, 2018

ILT... Huh? It's a WE thing...!

I am currently out of the business of writing blogs… But this might have to become a post. Well it just did. 

I have a great ILT… It is really just Michelle and I, which inherently is great, mostly because she is prepared, ready, and responsive.  

There is a moment in any group activity, when roles are established, barometers are set, language agreed on, and a path forward is determined.  It is hard when that dynamic is changed repeatedly.  My feedback ends there.  I will self reflect at the end, and it will seem a little boastful! It is meant that way, I am not worried about my feedback on how I establish relationships.  Sorry.... block me on twitter... I feed on that... 

This powerful group of 4 has met, I think, 4 times and we are a powerhouse.  We seem to like each other, but more than that, we are honest, we don't worry about repercussions of relationship shrapnel.  We shrug it off... Besides... Ahh... No Worries... 

Think about that word.. Powerhouse - I wrote it 5 lines up. We are a POWERHOUSE of 4, Rachel, Debbie, Michelle, Doug! 

We all have provided the necessary push back at mostly the right time.  We are feeling each other out, and at this level, is a lot of fun.  This is not taught, it is felt, through experience, the best way to learn.  Human connections, we are in human business, no matter how much we deny it.

It is hard to observe teachers on everything they do… That is not this blog post… Just want to be clear!

This is observation and feedback on leaders.  Debbie and Rachel are fantastic!  Michelle is more, a crucial element, the only voice to confirm, determine, drive to crucial… Michelle is the acknowledgement of the which for now is more meaningful.  OK... I agree, make no sense, unless you are there... sorry. 

It is great to find the voice, the MC, it is not easy, as the DJ!  HAHA! 

I truly appreciate you Rachel, Debbie, Michelle, and of course, I appreciate me.  I told you I would come back to me.  I am also pretty special... I recognize it, I also try to make sure I don't make it weird.  If I start to do it, I know my #cddolphins will tell me to breath and pump the breaks!

Thursday, November 8, 2018

Why have I waited...

I have been doing things for me lately... Less posts, less everything.  Still have my loves, "weekly video", posts about my school, conversations with teachers, etc continue..... But less of what I think will "develop my brand..."  I thought that was important at one point.  Then I realized, it is not that important.....

Like, I need to be liked, not "liked", I need to connect, but I don't need much more.

So here it is... This might be my weakest blog post ever. 

I am working on 1 thing now in my personal time.  I am creating my "soundtrack" for my 90's until 2005.... That is it.  Those are the constraints.  It is still who I am, but grown...

I have so changed, but I am still that person too.  I think the music will speak to what I mean.  I am going to let it tell that story.  I will be about 20 minutes long.  It will be mixed, maybe scratched, it will take me a while... if I can figure that out finally...

That is all. For now...

Sunday, October 14, 2018

If you are not continuously learning your passions or practicing them... shame on you.

As an educator we strive to create students that fall in love with learning and pushing themselves.  We strive to try and find what motivates them.  This is certainly easier said than done in a classroom of 25-30 students. 

One thing you can do is continuously strive to push your own interests.  Take care of you, and you will understand your students and their needs more.  I have 2 interests.  Music, in particular DJing and exercising.  I love both equally.  Maybe music a little more, but a good run or lifting session does make me feel better than sitting at turntables for an hour. 

One is creation and one is stress relief.  I would push you to find at least 2 hobbies that satisfy these needs.  Reading, knitting, drawing, walking, adult team sports, etc.  There are many options. 

Just find yours.  It keeps me going and I promise it will keep you going too. 

My writing is just here to document and keep my other 2 hobbies honest.

My number 1 passion is children and their growth, so I have that covered.  Thank goodness my 9-5, satisfies my number #1 need.  I can only imagine if I worked at a bank and I had to have 10-12 hobbies to keep me happy.....

I also know that if my number #1 passion of school pushes more than 50% for too long, I need to push back and be okay with it.  It is always in flux, there are weeks that school hits 75% and that is okay, it just can't be a forever thing. 

Wednesday, October 3, 2018

Today was Today

I am referring to all interactions here as "they" and "them" just to keep it confidential.  This is not about a kid, but our assumed role as educator.  Not what you learn in college, but what you learn in the work. It is inevitable to all of us, and I felt this today more than usual.

It was 8:50, a parent came in.  No big deal, they always come in at this time. They walk back after my dedicated secretary gives me a heads up.  Never had a secretary before CD, but I appreciate her for this, more than she understands. 

They come in as parents to speak to me about an issue or in this case to "make me aware" of a situation.  I love my community and my school.  I love how they want to share with me the inner most "issues" they are having.  I am not going to share that or anything more, but this is more about what all of us as educators need to feel at this moment. 

We are not all counselors, we are not psychiatrists, we are not psychologists, therapists, or doctors!!!

And this is exactly the point.....


We are educators, because our mission is to educate their most prized possession, we are open to everything.  Think about it, no parent sends their most prize possession to a place for extended periods without a great amount of trust and faith. 

With that faith and trust comes an unwritten contract that you are allowed to learn things about their family and their children that their grandparents, mom mom's, sometimes biological parents, uncles, and neighbors don't know. 

This is a great responsibility, but one you sign up for the day you sign the contract to educate.  This is not the reality colleges teach, the reality that reaches, the reason you stay in from season to season. 

I would argue the story I heard today, although hurt, I felt for them, made me want to love my job more than ever.  I don't want hardship, I want success, but I also want to be the rock, the reason they have faith, the reason they reach, the reason they strive to bring them to us, our school, our community, our number 1 on many levels, a beacon of caring, a place of safety, and place for them to learn.  We have more coming to us than others for a reason. I am proud of that with my staff.  It is hard at times, but worth it to see the successes! #cddolphins